Saturday, 23 January 2016

January Blues and Making Decisions

It snowed this time last weekend, and when I say snow I mean a really thin sheet of it. Then again it felt nice to draw my curtains on a winter morning and find a "true enough" wintery scene outside my window. Because I live in the midlands and because this is England, I doubt we're going to see anymore snow this winter (sigh).

After a long dragged Christmas holiday full of staying in pyjamas, plenty of chocolate, biscuit selections and watching films and tv. It was back to university this week, back to reality. But in fact the reality wasn't exactly how I had expected it to be like. I'm feeling run down once again. I'm indecisive, having second thoughts about the course, feeling drained and overthinking everything (I stress everything).

I wasn't completely enthusiastic with the first semester, I was frustrated with workbooks, histories, analogue process and understanding lighting (so pretty much everything). Through the Christmas holidays I was left with many questions, 'did I choose the right course?', 'will the next semester be better?' and yet those questions are still unanswered.

I never thought career paths would be this difficult. I thought once I had the idea in my mind as to what I wanted to do I'd be able to just go for it. But I guess it takes more than just going for it. My passions begin to change and I have all these ideas but I just don't know where to take them or what the next steps should be.

Yesterday at a career meeting I was asked "What do you want from a job?". What a challenge that was! To be honest I had no idea, I think I must have came up with 2 or 3 things. I think that's where these problems stem from, if you don't know what you want then your path isn't clear enough to make the right decisions.

It's still early days but I need to spend some time looking over my options and narrowing them down to then move in the right direction. No more stressing out and more of asking the right questions to the right people!


"It might take a year, it might take a day, but what's meant to be will always find it's way."

Thursday, 7 January 2016

Pages of 2016

January begins and already the weather has been pretty awful. Plenty of rain, wind and cold temperatures. It's not the kind of weather an umbrella can stand that's for sure! I hope everyone had a lovely Christmas and a happy New Year. Now it's onto the pages of 2016.

I'm not really into resolutions. Things change and there are going to be indecisive moments no matter what. However there's always the big 'To-Do' list. Unlike a resolution, that list can change as many times as you want without feeling guilty about it. I simply write down the things I need, want and wish to get done. I tend to write lists for each month, I guess you could also call them 'goals' for the month, if I don't complete one then I simply move it to the next month or change it up a bit. I have lots of different goals that I'd be very happy to complete, it also gives me that extra motivation to do the things I want to achieve.

My to-do lists will probably include the things I should have done last year. I know we shouldn't dwell on the past but last year was tough. I was too indecisive and I don't think I was really clear on what I was set out to do. No one ever really wants to make the same mistakes, so writing to-do lists will allow me to create a plan I can work on.

As well as writing a to-do list I have my journal. I had loads of pages left from 2015 so I have decided to split the journal up into 15/16, I didn't want to have to leave my diary unfinished with lots of blank pages. I remember buying this diary for my A Level art project two years back, for a 'personal diary' project. I needed a diary that looked authentic and would work beautifully for my photography. But I use it now as my occasional place to write my thoughts, any personal to-do lists and even quotes for that extra motivation!

Hopefully the weather will calm. After a few days stuck indoors I managed to get out a few times during this week. It's been nice just to get out to stretch my legs and get some fresh air.

I should start on that to-do list!

Does anyone have any big plans? Any to-do lists that need writing?


Journal or diary :: Paperblanks / Amazon
Duvet set :: Dunelm

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