Tuesday, 21 June 2016

Raindrops on Roses & Saying Goodbye

So far June has been a tough one. There have been times where I let my anxiety get the better of me which lead to many things going completely wrong and then last week we had to say goodbye to one of our cats. I haven't posted in a while but I thought this would be the best post to get back into writing again.

The weather has been up and down this month. It's been raining pretty much everyday for the past two weeks. But I like the sound of the rain as it falls against the windows with the windows left ajar so the smell of wet Earth travels into the house. It's soothing - the sound, the smell and watching the rain drops racing each other down the glass of the window. I've become a rain person in the past couple of months, I like the hot sunny weather but on some days I find the rain cleansing.

I spent most of the days outside in the garden. With an umbrella in one hand and camera in the other, I captured the rain drops on the flowers that blow gently in the wind. I had my camera lean steadily on my knees whilst I filmed a rose swaying in the wind, capturing the sound of rain pitter-pattering on the umbrella and leaves.

But I miss Roxy following me around the garden. It's like losing a best friend. No matter what people say, a pet is a part of your family. Couple of years ago she was left abandoned at the side of the road in a box along with four others. If I could I would have adopted them all.

We saw the cats at a friends house who rescued them, and hiding under the table was a furry tortoiseshell cat with her big eyes staring at me. I asked if we could adopt at least one and my parents couldn't say no. She would hide behind the sofa most of the time, then gradually over time she would come out to greet us. Each day we would stroke and play with her until she was comfortable knowing who her family was. She made everyone laugh, because she did the most silliest things! It was just amazing to see the change from being a terrified little cat left in a box to being such a lovely, friendly and fussy cat.

It'll take a while, I know from losing cats in the past that it takes a while to get used to not seeing them every day. I'm not sure if the other two cats have noticed yet but they seem really fussy, but I find It comforting. I'm getting there but I'll continue to write, it always helps to write down your thoughts. Whether it be in a blog post or in a journal, it helps to ease each day.

For Roxy

Thursday, 9 June 2016

Conquering Fear

Whether it be the dark, job interviews, doctors visits, starting university, a rollercoaster, you name it! At some point we all come face to face with our fears. It could take a week, a month or even a year to finally conquer our fears and phobias.

It's taken me 15 years to almost get over my phobia of blood tests and injections. It's taken a lot of fainting and refusing to finally get to a point where I can actually have it done (I may cry my eyes out but I can still do it).

Coming face to face with your biggest fears can be really hard going, especially when it really takes it out on you both physically and mentally. Here are a few things I do to try and fend off the fear:


Inner strength is key when coming face to face with your fears. Sometimes you can feel like your in a battle with your own mind, but your always losing and your inner strength fails you. Inner strength is telling yourself you can make a move instead of hiding away and turning your back on trying. It takes a lot of perseverance and self belief to gain your inner strength, but once you gain it you can have a chance at winning the battle and knocking that fear down.


Don't let those negative thoughts get the better of you. The worst thing you can do is let that side of your mind tell you that you can't do something when in fact you can. Tell the negativity to go away and start thinking positive, turn 'I can't' into 'I can'. Something as small as reading a positive quote every day can give you that extra motivation to ward off those negative sayings in your mind. I have a Pinterest board full of inspirational quotes, you can find them here!


Having a panic or anxiety attack is going to make it ten times harder to stand up to your fears. Whilst sometimes you can't help letting your emotions take over, the best way to counteract those feelings is to relax. Relaxation techniques such as breathing exercises, listening to music or meditation/yoga will allow time to calm down and regain focus. Top tip: Pinterest is full of so many different relaxation ideas, pin them to a board and you can go back to them whenever needed!


There's always a solution to fighting your fear. It's just trying to figure out different ways to overcome that fear. I know for a fact that I most of the time I faint at the sight of blood or from just thinking about it, so keeping my eyes closed and thinking about something else was one of my solutions. Not to mention eating chocolate before and after the test, I always remember 'eat you'll feel better' (the wise words of Remus Lupin) and it seems to work! There will always be a solution, the more solutions you find the more chance you have of facing your fears.


Note: these are just a few of my ideas which help me if I come face to face with one of my fears. Not all these things will work, as everyone is different and we all have different levels of fear.

Do you have any ways which help to
face your fears? Let me know
in the comments!


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Wednesday, 1 June 2016

Moments in May

Happy June everyone! Isn't it crazy how quickly these months are flying by? I mean it's almost Summer, can you believe it! It's been one of those up and down months, good days with a few bad ones. But I feel like this time I've learnt a lot from those bad days, from having an understanding of what's gone wrong and staying calm and relaxed away from stress. I decided to do a 'moments in May' rather than the usual favourites of the month as I don't really have much to share product and clothing wise. I'm trying to be reasonable and only spending on things that are absolutely necessary so I can save up for university this year. So without any further ado here are my moments of May!

1:: Finally getting my writing groove back! As previously stated in another post I was suffering from some sort of writers block. But, I finally pushed myself to get some blog posts written and finished for publishing!

2:: Eating ice cream in the warm weather.

3::  Helping with Spring/Summer DIY. I've been sanding and painting benches and table tops ready for sitting out in the garden in the warm Summer weather.  

4:: Finally getting around to watching Star Wars The Force Awakens. Yes I know, I am very late with this one but we wanted to wait until the film had released on the Sky Store so we could watch it at home!

5:: Getting back into baking. Occasional baking has now taken a turn, I'm baking every week and loving it! I've been trying out different recipes, but still sticking to the easy ones. I think now is the time to try more tricky recipes!

6:: Visiting Trentham Garden Centre. They have recently had a refurbishment and the place still looks beautiful.

7:: Chelsea Flower Show. Oh how I wish I visited this year!

8:: Adding Summer clothes to my wardrobe. New pair of blue jeans, shorts, sunglasses and more!

9:: Rejoicing my love for box sets! I just finished watching 'The Secret Life of an American Teenager' on Sky on demand. I'm now juggling between series 5 of 'Once Upon a Time' and series 6 of 'Gossip Girl' on Netflix.

10:: Having downpours of rain in between sunny days. I wrote previously in a post about how to 'cleanse your mind', rain being the main thing that helps cleanse my mind from any stress.


What have been your moments
of May? Let me know in the
comment below!


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