Every morning this week, outside my bedroom window I've looked out to find a beautiful frost glistening in the sunlight beneath the fog. The morning of my day off I decided to get dressed quickly out of my pyjamas, put on a Winter coat, grab my camera and went outside in the garden to take a few photos before the sun would melt away the frost. It was all I wanted to do, to take a few photos of the frost to capture Winter. It really is starting to feel more like Winter each day, I'm just hoping for some snow in the new year!
Christmas has been, the new year is almost upon us and I am ready to get back into a routine. Work has been crazy the past couple of weeks, if you too work in retail or have done in the past then you'll know what I mean, especially when there's the huge Christmas sales on. I've enjoyed lounging in pyjamas, watching lots of movies and eating plenty of chocolate. But now I'm ready to get back into a routine, one where I can start the day off right and with plenty of to-do lists to get through.
The Winter days feel like the longest out of all the seasons. I always like having my own routine with each day planned out properly, but more so in the Winter. Lately I've been feeling very tired and lethargic for the past couple of days and not feeling enough motivation in each day. I don't know whether it's because I've still been adjusting to longer shifts, the cold temperatures or just the aftermath of Christmas but I've been longing to get out of this slump and start to feel more energised and ready for the day.
That's what the new year is for, a new fresh start. 2016 for me wasn't the greatest and I'm not here to list all the things that went wrong this year, or list all the things I hated the most. But one thing for sure was that my anxiety took too much control over everything that I did and there were days where I really struggled to find motivation and make decisions.
But rather than reflect on all the bad, and noting that this year wasn't the best. Towards the end of the year things started to pick up for me. I slowly got out of the hold my anxiety had over me and I started to learn how to take control and stay relaxed and calm. With the help of reading plenty of books and blog posts of others who were going through the same sort of thing. As well as writing about parts of my anxiety too on my own blog. It really helped to know that I wasn't the only one and I could learn about others experiences, connect with others and it all gave me the guidance that I needed.
Not to mention this year I made the biggest and probably the best decision to drop out of university and not return. If anything it's made me stronger. I will always be the one who struggles to make big decisions, I'm not sure if I can change that in an instance, but after making that first one I believe I can get better at doing so.
And on that note, I wish you all a Happy New Year!