An Unexpected Feeling

1 June 2015

Things seem pretty surreal at the moment, since leaving school it has taken me a long time to eventually have a successful job application. Within a year I had 4 interviews out of a possible 20, the fourth being the successful one. I handed out CV's to many places - not to mention online applications too and every week I felt on edge because I was thinking 'why haven't I had a call back get?', I had a small amount of work experience with a photographer to get me out of the house but still I was feeling the pressure and stress of not yet having that first job. At the start of this year I was panicking about how I was going to afford university, my situation is that I only get just over the minimum amount of loan with no grants because my household is in the highest ranking of earnings. I really don't think it's fair to base this on our parents wages because my parents are certainly not going to pay for everything I need for living costs. So that's when I started panicking because if I wasn't working then how was I going to save up for university. I set myself a plan and I figured out that I could hopefully find something by March so I could start saving. Well that did not happen, but I decided that I couldn't keep feeling stressed as it just wouldn't make things any better.

So last month was when I had that fourth interview and I got a position. I feel like I don't need to go overboard and celebrate, it took a long time to get to this point and I guess it's strange getting used to a new routine. I realise It takes me a while to get used to change, there were a few days where I thought there was something bothering me and I was writing things down trying to figure out what it was. But it's quite simply the fact that my routine is slightly different now and I'm only just getting used to it.

Looking back at when I left school I now feel that I should have looked at the situation differently, I shouldn't have got myself so worked up and stressed out but I guess it doesn't help when I had two certain members of the family making a few comments. It's a tough process but I just kept to what I was doing, every week I would hand out CV's and when I had an interview I really tried my hardest. You can't turn back time but you can always learn from your mistakes, I now know that being patient is the key even if you feel like you have been waiting for ages.

My advice for stressful times is to read about other people who are going through the same situation, it just helps to know that you are not the only one and it can also help to know what their outcome was and how they powered through. I loved reading different blogs and also reading articles about how to improve CV's and how you can make yourself look presentable in interviews. I also took some time out away from the job hunting business and went out and took some photos, drawing, bit of gardening, dog walking and even DIY. It helped just to take my mind off of being stressed with finding work and it meant I had something to do when I didn't have the money or transport to venture out.

Happy 1st June!


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